Some lakes are one single grand gesture. Bolmen is many small ones.
When you first come to its shore, down at Bolmsö or somewhere between Ljungby and Unnaryd, all you see at first is a lot of water and a lot of sky. Yet Bolmen is the second-largest lake in Småland, right after Vättern, and one of the ten largest in Sweden. And it breaks up into countless small parts: they say it has 365 islands, one for every day of the year. Locals suspect there are even more.
I've loved this thought ever since I first heard it. Not one big island where everything happens, but lots of small ones, scattered across half the lake. That's sometimes how arriving at myself feels, too: not one single big breakthrough, but many small, unremarkable days that at some point come together into something whole.
When I stand here, I don't really count the islands. I simply let them be – just like the small, unfinished days that in the end make up a whole life.